BILLY EXPLAINS

Every day my mum and me play a game called 'Say what you’re thinking'. When we say that you have to say and tell the truth or the game doesn't work. Sometimes I ask her when she's doing dinner or watching telly. Its silly cos she thinks about not what she's doing. I asked her when she was washing my hair and she said she was thinking that the bathroom ceiling was a funny shape!

But she won't play today, she just says 'Not now Billy'. She hasn't played since my dad went to heaven last week. Heaven is up in the sky, farther away than the moon and the stars; God takes you there cos you can't get a rocket there yet. You have to fall asleep forever first and then when you do, God comes and gets you out of your body and takes you in his invisible flying bus to heaven. It's a bigger bus than the one we go to town in and it's always full up so you have to wait. I want to go there now so dad can take me to football but Granny says you have to be old to go there, but that’s not true cos my friend Tom's baby sister went there before she was even one.

Rainbows come from heaven. My dad told me that and my dad knows everything. He told me that rainbows are smiles from Granddad. He sends smiles like that so we can see them cos rainbows come from the sun in the universe and heaven is in the universe. Rainbow smiles is how God lets everyone in the universe know they're all still together.
Granddad sent a rainbow smile today; it was on the table in the front room by Granny's glass bowl. I called Mum to come and see but she just said 'Not now Billy'. I asked her what she was thinking, I wanted to play our special game, but she didn't answer. She just started crying again and Granny took her upstairs.

Auntie Kate closed the curtain over a bit and Granddad’s rainbow smile disappeared. I wanted to really punch her like I punched Sammy Jacobs on Monday in the playground. He said I would have to go to a foster home cos my dad's dead. I told him my dad had gone to heaven to see my granddad and Sammy laughed at me so I punched him. I wish God would have took Sammy on the bus instead of my dad.

I don't have to go to a foster home cos I'm going to look after my mum and granny. Granny said I am the man of the house now. I don't have to lock the back door before we go to bed though, cos you don't have to remember to do that until you are ten.
Auntie Kate has just gone up to see my mum and granny so I've got to go now cos I want to move the bowl over on the table so my dad can send me a rainbow smile. See ya.